Of Feelings & Things

As I was walking down the nearly empty city streets
Which were wet again because of the heavy rain
When the skies above this city turned into the usual cloudy and grey
The rainwater pooled on the cracks of the pavement faded into dark

I kept walking searching for some place I can call my comfort zone
A simple place I can call my own, and ours
Where time and space will pass us by when we see eye to eye
Where happiness and love are everywhere, surrounding us
Where you will give me the reasons to live,

And to recognize the whole mutual feelings we share and things we have as love.

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sepanjang pengetahuanku, yang tergolong relatif pendek ini, hujan deras yang turun setiap perayaan sin cia merupakan pertanda bagus. kurang lebih sama seperti salah satu lagu dalam tata ibadah kristiani yang mendendangkan "hujan berkat 'kan tercurah". semakin deras hujan yang turun pada saat hari pertama tahun baru cina, tandanya akan semakin besar rejeki yang dilimpahkan pada tahun itu.

nah, kalau melihat kondisi cuaca hari ini, harusnya sih semua pada deg-degan. soalnya cuma mendung tebal yang menggantung, membuat warna langit jadi kelabu dan menyebalkan. was-was juga sih, secara hari ini aku pengennya jalan-jalan cari dvd (bajakan, tentunya!) di ambassador. gimana kalau hujan, coba? padahal kan lanjutannya pengen ke aksara kemang.

soalnya dari info semacam tenaga pi-ar -nya si aksara, dia bilang kalau aksara lagi ngadain clearance sale. banyak banget buku yang diskon besar, dijual cuma 50ribu perak perbuah !!! meskipun, yah, sebenarnya kan kamis (22 januari) kemarin kan aku sudah beli 6 judul, tapi kan siapatau nemu buku lainnya yang lumayan menantang. seperti salman rushdie, misalnya? kalau "midnight children" -nya dijual murah juga, i'll definitely gonna buy it !

ngomong-ngomong soal beli dvd film yang bajakan, jadi agak bimbang. kalau nemu "slumdog millionaire", beli ga ya? tapi kenny bilang film itu bakal tayang pada minggu pertama februari di blitz. itu artinya kurang lebih cuma 2 minggu lagi !! kayanya lebih tepat menunggu. biar nontonnya bareng si gembul.

eniwei, si gembul pasti lagi makan banyak-banyaknya hari ini. itu sebabnya dia kupanggil gembul. kalau kami lagi makan bareng, waw ! terkadang aku terkagum-kagum dengan semua makanan yang bisa masuk ke dalam perutnya, tapi selalu saja aku yang lebih ndud dibanding dia. jangan-jangan, seperti 'tuduhan' yang kulontarkan saat dinner bareng natasha, vonny, ronny dan jason di kiyadon senayan city hari sabtu (24 januari) lalu, usus si gembul terhubung ke dimensi lain. jadi apapun yang dia makan, it doesn't matter.

dan entah mengapa, tiba-tiba aku terpikir mooncake ! harusnya sih, imlek begini pasti banyak dihidangkan ya? pesan satu ah sama si gembul, minta dibawain yang diameter 10 cm besok kalau ketemuan. hahaha! nyam-nyam.

oh ya sekalian mau ngucapin: gong xi fat choi! bagi teman-teman yang merayakan. happy chinese new year 2560.

This is You & I Now

Sitting here together for the first time in years
I can not understand why
It’s hard to remember how it felt before
How we felt before

Now I found the one that I love
Everything passes more comfortably
Life seems much easier to enjoy
Smiles show up easily

Things are getting right
For us both
This time

After all the obstacles we’ve tried to overcome
It’s good to see you now
With someone else
Loving
If not learning to love
Sharing things together with him
Holding hands while walking
Looking at each others eyes
Deep and meaningful glances exchange
Mutually understanding without changing any single word
Just like what we did back then

Back then we used to think “now” was hardly possible
But “now” all our worries gone untraced
Memories seem like so long ago
Shared sadness feels like non-existent
Time surely kills the pain

Do you remember the white beaches and the splashing waves
And the seagulls screaming above us under the bright cloudless sky?
The dreaming days were gone
Look at how we became
We have changed but we’re still the same

And now we’re hanging out with your new boyfriend
So far from where we have been
To me it’s such a miracle that
You and me are still good friends

After all that we’ve been through
Now, we are cool

"Return to Pooh Corner"

Under branches lit up by the moon
Posing our questions to Owl and Eeyore
As our days disappeared all too soon
But I've wandered much further today than I should
And I can't seem to find my way back to the Wood

So help me if you can
I've got to get back
To the House at Pooh Corner by one
You'd be surprised
There's so much to be done
Count all the bees in the hive
Chase all the clouds from the sky
Back to the days of Christopher Robin and Pooh

Winnie the Pooh doesn't know what to do
Got a honey jar stuck on his nose
He came to me asking help and advice
And from here no one knows where he goes
So I sent him to ask of the Owl if he's there
How to loosen a jar from the nose of a bear

It's hard to explain how a few precious things
Seem to follow throughout all our lives
After all is said and done I was watching my son
Sleeping there with my bear by his side
So I tucked him in, I kissed him and as I was going
I swear that the old bear whispered "Boy welcome home"

Believe me if you can
I've finally come back
To the House at Pooh Corner by one
What do you know
There's so much to be done
Count all the bees in the hive
Chase all the clouds from the sky
Back to the days of Christopher Robin
Back to the ways of Christopher Robin
Back to the days of Pooh

(I heard this song first when I was 19 in my freshman year at university majoring International Politics, and years afterward when I am working as a struggling-and-aspiring writer, this song by Kenny Loggins still made me smile each time I hear it, because it reminds me of how fun my childhood was)