Mulai Hari Ini

Maafkan,

Ketika kemarin malam,
egoku terlalu berkuasa dan mengambil-alih kesadaran,
sehingga sampai hati kulakukan itu semua.

Jujur tak pernah kuduga,
tindakan yang kuanggap sangat sederhana,
akan membuatmu begitu terluka.

Maafkan,

Ketika kemarin malam,
egoku yang membutakan jiwa,
membuatmu menangis sedih kecewa.

Jujur aku tak ingat,
betapa tindakan serupa yang kualami sendiri beberapa warsa silam,
pernah menimbulkan kekalutan luar biasa di dada.

Maafkan,

Sebab mulai hari ini,
tak kan kubiarkan air matamu mengalir lagi,
hanya karena hal-hal tak esensial,
seperti egoku yang terlalu berkuasa.

Salaam, Saudaraku

Ada yang perlu dicermati secara khusus tentang pelaksanaan kerukunan antarumat beragama di negeri ini, ketika ...

Perusahaan-perusahaan besar berlomba-lomba membuat iklan khusus dan memasangnya dalam jumlah ratusan spot yang bernilai milyaran rupiah di berbagai stasiun televisi, dengan bertemakan toleransi antarumat beragama - yang entah mengapa seringkali memperlihatkan pengadeganan mereka yang menganut agama bukan mayoritas di Nusantara dengan sukarela mengulurkan tangan membantu temannya dari agama mayoritas untuk menunaikan ibadah.

Ini merupakan jenis tema iklan yang sebenarnya akan lebih menyentuh sanubari dan membanggakan lagi, andai saja yang kemudian terjadi adalah ...

Munculnya versi 'balasan', di mana giliran si penganut agama mayoritas yang sebelumnya dibantu dalam melancarkan penunaian ibadahnya oleh si penganut agama minoritas, gantian mengulurkan tangan dengan tulus membantu ketika menjelang dan selama perayaan hari besar agama-agama minoritas lainnya yang berlangsung di lingkungannya.

Dan ketika justru hal ini tidak terjadi, lalu ...

Bagaimana mungkin toleransi tercipta dan kerukunan terjaga, apabila ego yang lebih berkuasa?

Will There Be Enough for You?

Would not there be enough for you?
Such an egoistic self-centered girl who lives in constant state of delirium.

Would not there be enough for you?
Not only have you ruined your life with your neurotic psychological condition,
you also want other people to jump off of the edge of sanity with you.

Would not there be enough for you?
Becoming a pathological liar could not satisfy your gargantuan ego;
creating extravagant stories spreading unimaginable lies has become your self-destructive habit.

Would not there be enough for you?
Saying you only need friendship from me,
but all the things you have done only reflected your needs for more and more than just that.

Would not there be enough for you?
You told me how you lose so many close friends back then;
and accusing them of intended refusal to understand you,
even abandoning you, stranded alone in the desert of loneliness and hopelessness,
but now it seem to me that you were the one who scared them away with your attitude.

Would not there be enough for you?
It scared me how you laughed off and ignored all suggestions from your close friends who are just a few left still standing beside you, trying to help you keep a firm grip on reality.

Would not there be enough for you?
When I asked you to stop doing things that only made me feel cheap and caused people gossiping I used you for my own good,
you responded in such an impolite manner accusing me of becoming a high-nosed ungrateful guy.

Would not there be enough for you?
When I told you "friends don't kiss" and “sex is the fastest way to ruin friendship” but for that single occurrence I had you forgiven.
But all you did in return was spreading stories that you had made it out with me at different times and on different places.

Would not there be enough for you?
You still have your little princess beside you, who still needs you so much;
instead you ignored her for other things you could not have and never will.

So I asked you once again,
Will there be enough for you?




{ Original version of Will There Be Enough For You? was originally posted on my now defunct Friendster’s blog on March 24th, 2006, as the fourth part of The Anti-Malicious Girl Campaign 2006 }