Showing posts with label feeling. Show all posts
Showing posts with label feeling. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

A Father I Have Known



Up on the mountainous northern part of the mineral-rich and fertile island
There laid this little village inhabited by less than one hundred people
It had neither electrical supply, convenient store nor a gas station
The closest ones were forty minutes ride by car from that little village

The small old wooden houses in that little village were spread on the mountain
Going from one house to another to visit the neighbors need extra physical work
Walking minutes to hours on the dirt roads, because there’s no other way than that

So it was not to anyone’s amazement when the little village was bit by bit left crumbling
Witnessed by its natural inhabitants, the underage kids and the elderly who could say nothing

Just like my father who left the little village even before he turned thirteen
Because he had his own dreams, to build his own better future
Riding in shiny motorcycles and living in a brick house with big glass windows
Instead of sweating and straining his muscles cultivating the rice fields
And struggling with low temperature at nights that freezes your breaths into dews once you exhaled

Because back in the time when the Dutch still colonized those fertile lands
Of the mountainous northern part of the mineral-rich and fertile island
Everyone wants to be like the people in the big cities

Just like my father who saw those big cities
From the thirty-five millimeters celluloid projected on large white fabric functioned as screen
Together with his peers and hundred others on that big grassy field
In the little town thirty minutes ride by car from his own village

That’s what people did back then to have some fun
That’s how my father got his inspirations and dreams for a better future
That’s also where and when he saw my mother for the very first time
That’s also why he left his parents in their old wooden house up on the mountain

Because he had his own dreams and he had fought to make them came true

So here I am now standing
Mere couple of years before turning thirty
And recently realized that
Probably, I was one of his many dreams but
Obviously he never told me that in words

He didn’t have to do it so simply because I already knew

Everytime I came home and hugged him
He hugged me back
The mutual feelings shared without any words being exchanged

I know I have to make it right this time to pay him back and make him proud





Note:
The old photograph posted above was taken from a Singaporean's blog.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Fell In Love With Gorgeous


We were holding hands while walking down the lane together
People stared but we just did not care
Sometimes they talked in audible voices and sometimes they only whispered
But something like this had little importance to us so we did not consider it as burden to bear

Because I fell in love with a Gorgeous Guy
Fell in love once and almost completely
We are so much in love with this world,
But sometimes these feelings can be so misleading

He was standing near the window
Watching the city's nightscene, the lights were bright red and neon yellow
He turned to look at me sitting on the bed looking back at him and asked,
"Are you alright, dear?"
I smiled back and said,
"I must be fine because my heart's still beating."

Stood on a stony riverbank cutting through the valley
Stripped down to the skin, we jumped from the dock falling to the river's stream
The water felt icy cold but hugging Gorgeous Guy sparked the fire within
In a low husky voice he said,
"Come closer and kiss me. Amy says it's fine, she doesn't consider it cheating."

Jet black short hair with a curl, mellow roll for the flavor,
The eyes were peeping, white teeth shown between your parting lips glistening
Knew I can not keep away from this Gorgeous Guy
Oh, how these two sides of my brain need to have a meeting

Can't think of anything to do
My left brain knows that all love is fleeting
He is just looking for something new,
and I said it once before but it bears repeating

Don't go telling no more
Don't go telling no more lies on Amy

But I found it hard to face up

Because I fell in love with a Gorgeous Guy
Fell in love once and almost completely
We are so much in love with this world,
But sometimes these feeling can be inadvertently misleading




{mostly inspired and freely adapted from the lyrics of The White Stripe's "Fell in Love With a Girl"}