Pikiranku, Petang Ini

petang ini kubuka lagi lembar demi lembar laman blog-mu
sudah lama tak kau perbarui dengan cerita canda dan lirik lagu

termenung kumenatapnya senyumku mengambang tanpa kumengerti mengapa
teraduk hati dari larutan emosi tapi tak lagi bisa ku merasa

kau yang dulu menjadi inti pusaran kehidupanku
kini tak lebih dari deretan foto usang pengingat masa lalu

tapi aku tahu perlunya berterima kasih padamu
sebab dengan sikap ketidakpedulian dan kekerasan hatimu

telah terbuka mata hati
telah bangkit kesadaran jiwa ini

bahwa untuk meraih kebahagiaan itu tidaklah mudah
bahwa cinta itu tidak selamanya indah

bahwa hidup bersamamu, mungkin bukan hal yang terbaik untukku.

Gone

Sometimes,
My mind still wandered
Thinking about how our relationship used to be
Before our love is gone

We were so entwined in our lies,
Surrounded by this make believes

I should have known the road we chose would run out on us

Can you tell me now what are we supposed to do?
After all that you and I have been through,
When everything that once felt so right now turns wrong,
Now that our love is gone

Our relationships last for years, but
I didn’t really know what to call you,
And to me,
You didn’t know me at all

I know you feel so hurt inside,
As I do feel just the same,
But if you still want to go on,
We need to find another reason

We have got to find another reason to hold:

Is it ...
Love?

You always seem to know where to find me
Yet I’ll never really learn how to love you

There is nothing left between us to prove,
Don’t see any reason to deny this simple truth.
I can’t find any reasons to keep holding on,
Now that our love is gone

So I need you tell me,
How many ways can we stand there in playback?
How did we end up standing here,
While I stared at you crying underneath the clear blue sky?

There’s nothing left for us to say

It’s time to move and go separate way,
Now that our love is gone.

One More Time, One More Chance

I'm always searching for your figure to appear somewhere
On the opposite platform, in the windows off the street,
Even though I know you couldn't be at such a place
If my wish were to come true, I would go to your side right now
There would be nothing I couldn't do
I would put everything on the line and hold you tight

If I just wanted to avoid loneliness, anybody would have been enough
Because the night looks like the stars will fall, I cannot lie to myself
One more time, oh seasons, fade not
One more time, when we were messing around

I'm always searching for your figure to appear somewhere
At a street crossing, or in the midst of dreams
Even though I know you couldn't be at such a place
If a miracle were to happen here, I would show you right away
The new morning who I'll be from now on
And the words I never said: "I love you"

The memories of summer are revolving
The throbbing which suddenly disappeared

I'm always searching for your figure to appear somewhere
In the town at dawn, at Sakuragi-cho
Even though I know you wouldn't come to such place

If my wish were to come true, I would go to your side right now
There would be nothing I couldn't do
I would put everything on the line and hold you tight

I'm always searching for fragments of you to appear somewhere
In a stone during my travels, in the corner of a newspaper
Even though I know you couldn't be at such a place
If a miracle were to happen here, I would show you right away
The new morning who I'll be from now on
And the words I never said "I love you"

I always end up looking for your smile to appear somewhere
At the railroad crossing waiting for the express to pass
Even though I know you couldn't be at such a place
If our lives could be repeated, I would be at your side everytime
I would want nothing else
Nothing matters except for you

Selamat Tinggal ... Selamanya

Ada kalanya cintamu kurasakan

Ku takkan tergoyah, kini tak lagi gairah

Apakah harus usai cerita cinta hanya karena kita merasa jenuh berdua?
Mungkin baiknya aku mencoba untuk menjauh

Adakah dirimu masih inginkan aku?

Andai saja bisa kukatakan bahwa sejujurnya aku masih inginkan sayang

Wajahmu selalu ada dalam benakku,
Dengarkan jerit hatiku
Dengarkan pinta hatiku
Mungkin baiknya aku coba untuk menjauh

Adakah dirimu masih inginkan aku?

Ku tak mungkin membuatmu mencintai aku
Ku tak mungkin memaksa jika sudah tak ada
Ku tak mungkin bertahan bila semua t'lah hampa

Mungkin ini saatnya ucapkan selamat tinggal ...

... selamanya











[ As performed by Shanty; song & lyrics by Dewi Sandra and Boy Syaref -- Dedicated to MasaiLion I once love with all my heart and soul, wishing you'll have a wonderful St. Valentine's Day celebration ]